Asher to Ashes

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Asher to Ashes

13th of Ashan, Arc 719
It was the trial of his birth. His thirtieth arc on Idalos, to be precise; a signifier of... something. Prestige, in some ways, to have survived such a turbulent life for so long. Of course, as with all things of late - since coming together with Zarik, really - Alistair was eminently happy, or at least externally. Though he had begun to wonder, really, how everything would play out. Ashan thirteen was more than just a celebration for him; it had always been a moment of reflection. He looked back upon the arc and fiddled with the details, always present in his mind; he wondered where he'd gone wrong, what he'd done well, and what the tidings of the arc might be. In this particular story, the tale of the last arc, everything had become devoured by Zarik and the fateful meeting that the old and the new - trying to come together and live in peace - would soon have.

And Kleine, and Daniel... they were a part of the old, just like Fridgar. To be one of the ones who stuck around was no diminishing thing; Alistair chose his friends and companions carefully, and he loved them all dearly. But for as much as their friendly advice had saved him from pain or arcs of further displacement, they were a scrutinizing and harrowing crew, particularly when it came to the man's one great weakness in life: romance. The pull of others. Love. Alistair had a weakness prevalent among many boys, and men, but few his age. He often mistook his reproductive organ for his soul, and transposed their emotions between one another. In this case, there was no confusion and never had been. He'd chosen the man who would rule beside him, who would conjoin with his soul, mother his children...

But they didn't know that. In fact, they didn't know anything about Zarik. They knew, by now, that he was a Venora... and that Alistair proclaimed to love him. And that he'd taken an inordinate amount of the magister's time of late, with few trials spent productively since they'd first met for that interrogation. Of course. The gravity of the infatuation would only further divide them from his own perspective, and the approval of Kleine and Daniel both meant something very important for Zarik: the ability to live comfortably in Alistair's home. The ability to seek out help in others, to truly feel as part of one family. Fridgar was coming soon. If they treated him well, and not Zarik, then...

Of course, all of these things were on his mind. An endless encirclement of thoughts that he did not know how to properly manage, with solutions that seemed unavailable. And that was what he awoke to. Before long, though, he gathered his things like he always did - into his Domain Bag, and he got himself dressed. The mage eagerly began to say his goodbyes to the Island, for as much solace as it had given them both, beginning to miss his home... his business, his son. Alistair and his thralls cleaned the cabin out thoroughly, ensuring it looked much as when they'd first laid their eyes upon it, if not better without dust and cobwebs in the darker corners.

With everything restored to its prior position, and the mage and his Revenants had succeeded in tidying up, Alistair called upon Zarik and asked for him to come out of the cabin and into the forest clearing that it sat within. From there, he advised him on the sensibilities of Kleine, and Daniel; that Kleine was a loyal friend but with a fiercely protective nature over his flock, as all Lotharro truly were; that Daniel was a man with a friendly nature but one that often offended others.

He did not warn him of particular conversations to avoid, or things to say or not to say, however... as everything would come out eventually. They would all have to learn to live with one another, their full hearts and minds splayed out. Or so he wished it to be.

When everything was settled, Alistair opened a portal before them, took Zarik's hand and stepped through. They would be displaced quite rapidly, stepping through miles in an instant, and appearing once again within the foyer of the Ashvane Estate. Alistair's thralls followed them through, and immediately returned to their labor, the estate's sanitation poorly managed without their keen eyes. The Kingfisher would need to be transported back upon his ship, or - he thought - it could reside on the Island in wait. He could still compel it, even from this far away.

Whether or not either of them were prepared, it did not take long for others within the estate to hear the loud rippling boom that was the intrusion of his portal; it reverberated the air around it, causing for the young Asher in his crib to begin to cry. Alistair could hear it well, despite the distance. His hearing of late had become well attuned, even among long stretches and closed rooms. Kleine attended to him quickly, and the mage heard that too. He spoke of bringing him to 'daddy', to make him calm, even though it was his father's return that had sent him into tears in the first place.

The young Lotharro held the baby in his arms, and peered at the two men beside one another from the top of the wooden steps, staring down below as he rocked the baby in his arms. Asher's crying slowed, and then began to cease altogether. It appeared Alistair was not even needed.

"Hello," said Kleine. "I take it you're Zarik? Welcome. What surname did you take? Venora, var Radomir, or Calder? The master of this house keeps many. I cannot always be sure as to which one he wears."
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The last morning on the island came and went as swift as anything else in regard to Zarik’s relationship with Alistair. Not only would they be returning to Quacia, but it was the magister’s birthday. Zarik, who’d gradually calmed from everything that had happened since their arrival – from the Saltfetcher attack, from the initiation that still resounded in his very bones, from… his husband’s affections, even, though he would not openly admit such a thing required recovery. The limitations of Zarik’s once-chaste body had been surpassed time and time again since the foreigner had whisked him away from his father’s home. And it was on the morning of the 13th that Zarik inexplicitly felt the impact on both his body, mind, and soul. He wanted, so badly, to be the perfect wife and to provide for Alistair yet becoming a mage had changed everything or so it felt like in his body. He tried to not place more significance on the unfamiliar sensations. He tried to concentrate on his newlywed husband, especially since it was his 30th birthday…

…but Zarik had started to get lost in his own thoughts. It’d started gradually the day before, in the quiet enforced silence caused by his sore throat, and now the sense of a hazy mind lingered even though his throat had mostly recovered. While Alistair and the thralls cleaned, he pretended to sleep. He nestled under the bed covers and hid in the dark. Zarik shut his eyes tight, as if the dense shadows of the covers weren’t dark enough to keep him hidden. He supposed he should help with the tidying. As he listened, eventually he peeked out from beyond the cover edge to watch one of the Revenants pick up the clutter Zarik had left during his exploration to identify objects yesterday. The ice-blond biqaj rolled in the blanket and refused to leave the bed, though Alistair didn’t seem keen to ask him to. Maybe he preferred Zarik to stay out of the way for the morning chores?

Zarik hadn’t acted as fondly as he should have, he supposed in the contemplation under the covers, not last night or this morning. Oh, yes, he had kissed Alistair and pawed at him and cuddled, but he hesitated from anything more than that. His hesitation had displayed clearly in his eyes too, or so he assumed, as Alistair lately seemed to look into his eyes more to… read him than to simply ask how Zarik felt. Did Alistair know he couldn’t control the colors in his irises? Did he believe them to be consciously manipulated? It seemed the older man had experience with biqaj though, which reminded him of Tyara, of the woman who shared his sister’s name.

His thoughts filled with consideration of this; Of everything he’d proclaimed in the aftermath of their discussion about heirs. Why had he said so much? What was it about Alistair that made his tongue move for his heart and not his head? Zarik didn’t want to regret anything though. Upon this realization, Zarik threw the covers back and sprung to his feet on the bed. He jumped to the side. Zarik dressed – though he did not wear the clothing that he’d arrived in – and collected… mostly sticks and oddities he’d found in nature that he wanted to bring back with him. He looked at the sad little pile of items, then couldn’t justify taking away any of it, either because it belonged to the cabin or the woods themselves. So, he had nothing but the tunic and shorts and sandals and the ether that brewed inside of him, and a spark that he strangely didn’t feel much different than before he’d been initiated with it or perhaps it wasn't the ether he felt, but the spark instead? Zarik couldn't be sure.

Zarik heard his name called from the first floor. He took a last look around the bedroom, then whispered gratitude to the cabin for providing a safe place to enjoy their short time together. Zarik walked down the stairs, but his heart strained as his chest tightened. He frowned, his dark brows knitted together. He reached Alistair, then followed him out of the cabin and into the forest clearing. Zarik stayed quiet. He stroked his fingers over his throat to signify that he didn’t want to talk still. It wasn’t like Alistair hadn’t attended to the recovery though and if he tried, his voice likely would prove fine… but Zarik didn’t want to try yet.

Instead, he listened to Alistair tell him about the friends and household he’d meet on the magister’s birthday: of Daniel and Kleine. Zarik gnawed at his lower lip. He wanted to remember the details, though he didn’t ask for more than that. However protective or offensive these other men would be, Zarik only cared that they would come to accept him as Alistair’s spouse. They didn’t have much choice though, did they? After all, it was recorded by the Theocratum.

Yet Alistair gave him no instruction as to what to say or how to act. He only gave the slight information, a mild dose of reminding him about names and potential personalities when he’d talk with them. Zarik nodded regardless though, despite how lacking he felt Alistair’s debriefing was. He took hold of the man’s hand, though Alistair seemed to intend the same touch, and he squeezed tight. His fingers entwined with Alistair's.

He kissed the magister on the lips and said in a hoarse whisper, “I don- I- Merry birthday.” He’d wanted to say that he didn’t want to leave, not ever. He wanted to pull Alistair along with him, back into the cabin, up the stairs, and untidy the bed together. Zarik felt nervous and unsure. His eyes flashed somber blue. The portal opened, though, and the newlywed couple left the sanctuary of the island, with the thralls following behind them.

The return to the foyer reminded Zarik of when he’d first entered the estate and had been so thrilled by the sight of the noble décor. Now, he looked at it with thoughts of how much there was to familiarize himself with through ether. But Zarik kept a tight hold on Alistair’s hand. He glanced at the undead servants as they took to tidying the estate again. The youthful biqaj turned toward his husband. His other hand went to Alistair’s waist, caressing over the clothing to feel the human’s muscular build below the fabric. Zarik moved his lean body closer to press against him as he wanted to… to… find any excuse to avoid the inevitable.

But like most inevitable occurrences, fate did not afford Zarik even a minute’s grace. He heard an unfamiliar voice say his name. Zarik forcibly drew his gaze away from Alistair and landed his blue-eyed sight on a blond man holding a baby, at the top of the stairs. His eyes widened. The child had to be Asher. He lightly bit his lower lip, then glanced at Alistair again.

Whatever Kleine said, it drifted past him with vague recognition. Distracted by sight of Alistair’s biqaj-blooded son, Zarik casually made mention of the surnames. He spoke to his husband instead of to the man who he now assumed was Kleine. He whispered, “You have more names?”

Zarik paused, then he remembered the ring on his finger. He held up his hand, fingers pointed upward, to display the Venora signet ring for Kleine to look upon. That would answer the question as to what surname he’d taken, wouldn’t it? He hesitantly smiled. He let go of Alistair’s arm and stepped forward on his own. Zarik paused at the foot of the stairs. He looked up, his gaze fixed on the child for a few seconds, then he looked back at Alistair. His smile became genuine as hesitation faded. He asked, "May I see him?"

Whether allowed to properly meet with Asher or not, Zarik forced his voice - though he kept his gaze locked on Alistair for the moment as the faded blue of his eyes transformed to crystalline ice blue - and he said, "Kleine, yes?".

He cleared his throat, settled his cracked voice, then turned an increasingly neutral expression onto the man-in-question, "It is good to meet you. Alistair speaks fondly of you."
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However Zarik took to the question, it was clear from the almost malignant look upon his husband's face that Alistair was... incredibly irritated by Kleine's spiteful introduction. He stared to the dirty-blond Lotharro with a dimmed glare, chastising him and expressing his anger, both. Zarik did not seem to mind the query, however, or perhaps he did not understand the message within the words; that Alistair was a shapechanger, that he altered his identities and his lovers and kept many names to hide himself with - one, Calder, coming from his other husband. Fortunately, his beloved was not so cynical as to understand, and he knew little of the context of Alistair's life. Instead, he simply asked of his other names, and showed Kleine the signet ring.

But that would merit an explanation, and a useless one at that. Alistair had no desire to make Zarik suspicious of him, and so such mentions were pointless to make. He supposed Kleine felt that arbitrary truths were to be splayed out, however, and Alistair had no choice but to explain them as they came. "Yes," he replied, looking back to Zarik with a faint smile. He tossed the glare the moment he thought to look at his beloved. "When I was exiled, I created multiple other surnames after the renouncement of my noble claim. It was to protect myself - the King had hunters coming for me. I had a bounty of five thousand gold nel," he said. "So - I took on many faces, and with them many names. Some of them stuck, even attached to my legal records. You will certainly see 'Alistair var Radomir' if you ever peruse through my documents." It was a satisfactory explanation, he felt, and Kleine said nothing. The message was received.

Instead, he focused his attention on Zarik, who released hold of Alistair's arm and stepped to the foot of the stairwell. When Zarik inquired as to whether or not he could see Asher, the Lotharen man began to speak, only to be cut off. "Yes, you may," Alistair said. The message, there, was clear: Asher was Alistair's child, not Kleine's. Kleine had no right to bar Asher's legal parent from seeing him. Particularly not, when...

"Kleine, I have ample reasoning to believe that Zarik's sister is the progenitor of your totem. The one we utilized to... create Asher. Do you remember the woman, Tyara's, last name? Knowing it might help in uncovering the answer," he said.

"No... I can't remember," the Lotharro replied. "I could just Become her. Wouldn't be very difficult to Unleash." To that, there was no response by the magister, torn between affirmation and dismissal; a plethora of questions spread throughout his thoughts. Would Zarik recognize her, even in a mature form? Would such a thing be appropriate upon their first meeting?

As he thought, Zarik spoke once more, a simple confirmation of Kleine's identity as the Lotharro quietly nodded. He offered Asher to him, tilting him slightly forward so that he could take him into his arms, once he ascended the stairs. His pleasantries were, seemingly, met with little enthusiasm however, as the Nordhoff simply replied with a 'hn'.

"It is good to know that his words, at least, betray his actions. Though Alistair may speak fondly of me, he still performs deeds such as leaving me to take care of his child for five trials. I suppose, though, that my life-bond to Fenn Malak was like this. I've traded one upstart King for another. Hopefully when you two are married for long enough, he does not treat you the same."

It was rare for him to speak... even remotely so bitterly about the mage, and so openly. He often argued with him in private, ever since Alistair had betrayed his promise he'd made before the birth of Asher. But this was... a different level of openness. It was jealousy, and he could feel it, resonating with his blessing. Anger, betrayal. To see another have his hand in marriage - a thing he'd wanted for all of his time knowing him - it was a pain beyond recognition. And Alistair's assertion that Tyara was his sister... meant that he was more a mother to Asher than Kleine was. That--

"That's enough, Kleine," Alistair commanded, lowly. "We can speak of your issues with me later. You are in the presence of my wife, a person you've never met. Won't you think to be more courteous?"

The younger man sighed, and looked to the biqaj with a faltering gaze. "You're right," he professed. "My apologies, Zarik. It is a good thing that you've come into Alistair's life, I suppose. Asher needs a true set of parents - not a man and his glorified nanny. If he is truly of your blood, then... that would be wonderful, would it not? Tell me, though; do you even understand what you're delving towards? This life offered to you... it's far from the shallow joys of peasantry. It's an ever-enduring vexation, of power and thrill and threat. I myself have begun to grow... fatigued."
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Zarik
didn’t understand the provoked, annoyed look on Alistair’s face. Was it due to Kleine initiating the introduction? Was it because of the question involving surnames? Zarik wasn’t sure, but he was mostly distracted by the sight of Asher anyway. He needed no other explanation from Alistair except: “Yes” and the slight follow-up about identity protection due to exile. The accumulation of multiple names seemed more than reasonable to him, though he knew little of any significance regarding the surnames. Zarik nodded before Alistair continued to explain about the bounty and the legal records. He nodded once more, then left Alistair’s side. Zarik went to the foot of the stairs, his focus centered on the child which distracted him from the man holding Asher.

His smile brightened when Alistair offered permission to properly meet Asher. Zarik let the men talk about the blood-mother as he walked up the stairs. He wondered, briefly, at the suggestion for Kleine to Become this woman. He didn’t necessarily know if he wanted to see her though, let alone if he’d be able to recognize his sister. It’d been over a decade since he’d seen her last. The consideration, however, could wait. Zarik spoke to Kleine directly for the first time, so as not to completely ignore the Lotharro… at the same moment as when he took Asher from the other man.

The biqaj worried, momentarily, that he might accidentally drop the child and so he held a bit tight. He cradled the half-an-arc-old son against the cotton tunic over his flat chest. As Kleine talked about Alistair and some person called Fenn – a name which meant nothing to Zarik - he walked around the shorter man and headed into the upper floor’s common room. He sat on a sofa. His attention fixated on the child in his arms, and he blatantly ignored Kleine’s bitterness with a half-listening ear. For Asher had started to sniffle, then cry.

“O-oh,” said Zarik. He wasn’t sure how to soothe the baby. He instinctively rocked him though, as he’d seen many mothers do with their children in markets and other such places. “Shh, shh, it’s okay, Asher. You won’t fall; I’ve got you.”

But such a fear was Zarik’s own. The child seemed more concerned by a stranger who held him, searching for a familiar face instead. Zarik worried, gnawing on his lower lip. He didn’t look away from Asher and he tightened his grasp, refusing to hand the baby over. His irises absorbed color and turned blue-black instead of the light aqua. Alistair’s son looked back at him with fearful wonder, the same dark colors reflected in Asher’s watery eyes. Zarik happily gasped…

Zarik’s eyes flashed a different color, in swift change of amber hues. Asher’s eyes followed along, in a communication that could truly only be known between certain biqaj. He hadn’t expected it possible with a half-blood though. It reminded him, in the back of his mind, of how his father sometimes silently spoke with him – implied conversations occurring in the span of mere bits due to the flashing reveals of mood-driven thoughts. Little could hide from a biqaj who knew a loved one’s spectrum well enough. Zarik’s amber calmed into daffodil yellow. He smiled. Asher had stopped crying and the baby’s eyes brightened as yellow as his own.

Distracted by this, Zarik barely heard anything spoken between Alistair and Kleine. He returned to the conversation when he recognized his name and an offered apology. Had an apology been needed? Zarik forced himself to politely look at the Lotharro. He felt a pull on his tunic as Asher grasped his collar, likely to make him look down so their eyes could interact more. Zarik did want to hear what Kleine had to say though, for these words sounded… important, in a way.

He nodded to agree that if Asher shared his family’s blood, it would indeed be wonderful. But then Kleine turned to ask a different question, having drawn in Zarik’s obvious attention with the prior innocuous one. Zarik listened closely to the intonation of Kleine’s voice as the man mentioned peasantry compared to the vexation of higher-class life and whether Zarik understood what he'd gotten himself into by marrying Alistair.

“No, my understanding is limited,” admitted Zarik plainly and honestly, without pause. Power, thrill, threat: it was true, all of those he'd experienced in the past few days through varying, unprecedented ways... but Zarik did not begrudge these things. They fueled his passions instead. He demurely smiled toward Kleine to make it clear that he didn't mind not fully understanding. A silvery-blue blush crossed over the bridge of his nose. He turned his gaze back to Asher. He waved his index finger in front of the baby to entertain him.

Zarik cleared his throat, then added, “I do understand that you are much more than a glorified nanny, Kleine. You are a dear friend of Alistair’s, and thus you shall be a friend of mine.”

The biqaj wrinkled his nose as Asher caught his finger. The baby cooed and the ice-blond biqaj chuckled, then cooed in a mimic. More comfortable with holding the child on the sofa, he set Asher to sit up on his lap. Zarik looked at Alistair, wanting to meet the other man’s gaze, before he also said, “If you’re tired, Kleine, you may take a nap. Alistair and I will watch Asher some. Won't we, my love?” He directed the question to his husband. He kept his gaze on the magister, and his eyes sparkled in yellow and rose-pink colors.

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Though Alistair, having ascended the stairs, did not immediately notice the torrent of colors through their eyes, he was not dismayed when Asher seemed to profess doubt in being held by another. The way Zarik held him was immediately reassuring, and his kindly expression befitting of a mother was graciously reciprocated by the infant's benign curiosity. Asher calmed before long, and looked to him with splendor, even joy, unprecedented among any first meeting of his. Even Alistair had difficulty in soothing him in moments like this one, particularly after a portal had been opened, as the space within the Estate split and mumbled in displeasure. Yet Asher began to coo gleefully, staring at him with a profound longing to... understand him, he supposed. Why were they so closely drawn together, he could only wonder?

The mage drew closer, brushing past Kleine and stepping towards the sofa, standing before his young lover as he overlooked the two in their eyes' entanglement. Looming from above, he saw his son's eyes shift in color in near perfect synchronization with his 'mother'. It was strange. Did Zarik, then, share the same shades? He'd never seen Asher with those colors. They were always a tidal blue, a lot like his own, or some other mundane color; blue, green, brown. Perhaps a hazel, or even a topaz. Never had the shades professed themselves so vibrantly, and mirroring Zarik's.

"Do you share the spectrum?" he asked him, amidst Kleine's words, or warnings as Alistair might have considered them. He spoke with almost a whisper, as if to not distract his friend, though he didn't wish to indulge the foul seed he seemed to wish to plant in their relationship. Instead, Alistair drew closer to the two, kneeling on the ground as he pressed his abdomen between the part of Zarik's legs and laid softly against the baby that was in his arms. Asher seemed... immensely calm; satisfied in the embrace. The two were immediately well-oriented to one another, like the young man had been his mother all along.

When Zarik spoke, the mage's attention snapped back to his lover, hearing his responses even though he tried to tune out the questions. His understanding was limited. It was true; Alistair hadn't told him all too much, of Ellasin or Cassander or Syroa... or really any of the various existential threats that he faced, that the two of them would now face together. Still, he did not seem deterred by the Lotharen's claims, seeming to embrace the aspects of their relationship plainly. They were, he supposed, only a fringe element within a greater whole... which included love, passion, understanding and other wondrous things within it. Somehow, Zarik's simple answer pleased Alistair, as he took a soft hold of his son's tiny hand and played with his short fingers and his palm.

Kleine responded to the biqaj's replies with a pure silence, though visibly - with only Alistair appearing to glance - it was evident that he was angry, or bitter, or both. He clenched his fists together and stifled the temptation to grimace, his lips twitching as he stared at the three with a resentful glare. You shall be a friend of mine. He continued to listen, though the suggestion of taking a nap immediately inflamed his wroth. Whether it was the wording, or the subtle request to leave their presence - perhaps confirming to him that he'd been replaced even as Asher's caretaker - his eyes flared with anger as he held back an incredible mass of bile that wished to spew forth from his lips. He, now, did grimace as he observed them and their mutual gaze, with Asher continuing to tug on the fabrics of his clothing to reunite their stares.

"I may take a nap?" he asked, his expression flattening as he attempted again to restrain it. "I'm not tired, dear friend. Though I suppose with the suggestion of the new mistress of this house, I will leave your exalted presence. Try not to bleat your pleasures too loudly when your bodies again reunite; I tire of stilling Asher's tears at his father's selfish acts of lust." And then, he turned from them and gripped the wooden handle of the stairs, descending with shaky legs and a jaw that seemed to quiver in frustration. Daniel exited his room, though the door had already been parted slightly as he listened to their conversation. He immediately spoke to Kleine as he met the bottom of the stairs, attempting to calm him as he ushered the young man into his room so that he might console him.

Alistair sighed. Sensing the tension in the room, or perhaps at the prolonged gap of his mother's gaze, his son began to cry, and the man pressed forward to hold him in a mutual grasp, to provide further comfort. It only slowed the tears.

"I'm sorry, Zarik," he said. "They will come to love you through time. But... it's a complicated life we all lead. Years of stories left untold, with emotions still yet poorly understood. It is not you that Kleine feels anger towards, but me. And in that regard, he is justified." The mage smoothed his palm over the top of Zarik's hand as it held Asher in his lap. He attempted to interlace with his fingers, attempting to show his support. That ultimately, he was on his side; the side of his family.

"He loves you already," said Alistair, referring to his son as he glanced at him with a warm smile. Asher's crying finally began to halt into receding whimpers, as his eyes now reflected a tidal blue, with black blotches disappearing and reappearing as if to represent the swirling of the vortex. "Like I do. And that truth, alone, is the source of Kleine's frustration. Allow the man his envy."
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heard Alistair’s whispered question, his hearing sensitive to his lover’s voice. He didn’t answer though, not wanting to rudely ignore Kleine’s words yet again. It seemed a rhetorical question anyway since it appeared obvious that Asher mimicked the color of Zarik's eyes; a spectrum passed down from his ancestors and specifically, the maternal lineage according to his father’s debasing statements about Zarik having his mother’s eyes. Isolated from his race since childhood, he did not know enough biqaj to claim if such ancestry proved rare or not, only that Zalazar's eyes were often muddied by resentment.

He smiled when Alistair joined them next to the sofa. Zarik subtly widened his legs just enough to make room for Asher’s father to be comfortable. He answered Kleine’s inquiry without shame of his admitted ignorance. It would be overt, in time, that Zarik knew little of the world that Alistair had drawn him into. There was no point in pretending on that matter and perhaps, he hoped, Kleine might help him learn of things he needed to know so he wouldn’t have to burden Alistair with teaching. There was so much they had to go over, with magic and politics and otherwise, that if he could find other informants for different areas, it would save Alistair’s limited time for more important things, as well as the romance that continued to blaze between them. He recognized that even powerful nobles like Alistair needed to sleep like everyone else.

Zarik didn't notice how angry Kleine had started to get. His attention returned to Asher, after all. He was not attuned to the Lotharro’s energy and as such, he did not feel the rising tension… nor the bitterness that Zarik’s words stirred when he let the other know that he intended to be friends with Kleine. In fact, he didn’t look at Kleine since his little smile about his own ignorance, and he turned his attention onto Alistair instead.

But there was no misunderstanding the barely restrained tone of voice when Kleine repeated Zarik’s words back to him. Zarik’s smile weakened, though he kept his gaze on Alistair… until one particular word caught him by surprise: mistress. The irises of Zarik’s eyes turned a vibrant turmeric-tinted orange color. He looked at the Lotharro. Finally, Kleine had snatched his true whole attention since their arrival in the foyer… and Kleine only continued once he had it. The bitterness became ever more obvious to the previously content biqaj. Perhaps Zarik might’ve tried to apologize, or explained that he hadn’t meant to dismiss the man – only that hadn’t Kleine mentioned he was fatigued? Caring for a child was tiring work, Zarik understood that… but he couldn’t ignore the audacious insult and the implication behind new mistressnew

Zarik paused as the dirty-blond started down the stairs, then swiftly looked at Alistair with wide, orange-hued eyes. He flipped his bangs away from his brow and whispered, “What was that?! A-are you not going to say anything?”

Asher started to cry. The wailing broke Zarik out of his momentary annoyance. He shook his head, closing his eyes, then opening them to reveal crystal blue irises instead as he forcibly calmed himself for Asher's sake. Zarik cooed at the baby while Alistair pressed forward to hold their son. “It’s okay, Asher, don’t cry now."

Zarik listened to Alistair’s apology and explanation. His pale pink lips slanted in a disbelieving expression. He didn’t need Alistair’s friends to love him. He only required acceptance and enough favor to find them useful in his endeavors. Zarik did not share this with his husband though. He didn’t want anyone to overhear them anyway. He realized, after Kleine’s comments, that sound must’ve traveled through the estate easier than he realized. He hadn’t even thought about it on his first visit and… Zarik vividly blushed at the recollection. Had Kleine heard him? It seemed so.

The touch of Alistair’s hand on his own brought him back to reality instead of being embarrassed over the recent past. Zarik nodded. He opened his mouth to ask something, but then closed his lips and changed his mind. The youthful biqaj’s smile returned when Alistair mentioned Asher’s easy attachment.

“Yes, it makes sense, I suppose. I will give Kleine time to adjust,” said Zarik. He cleared his throat. It still felt a little irritated, though mostly healed after the warm-up of use during the introduction. “I feel… strangely, though, my love. But… it… it does not matter. Does it, Asher?”

Zarik leaned slightly forward. He tilted his head and purposefully wrinkled his nose, then stuck out his tongue in a childish attempt to distract Asher from crying. He smiled at the vortex-like reflection in the child’s eyes that seemed to attempt to recreate Alistair's irises. Zarik's own eyes returned to the yellow and rose schema. He spoke to Asher directly, “You are so talented already. Better than me, certainly. Look at those eyes of your’s! One could hardly tell you didn’t rise from the sea foam itself. Silly little Asher; yes, you, Asher! My name is Zarik. I love your father, and I love you too.”

He smiled, then glanced at Alistair and cheerfully said, “He’s going to be handsome and strong like you, I can tell. Thank you for letting me hold him. Does he have… any games he likes to play or is he too young for that?”

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If there was a reason he'd not said a single word throughout the Lotharro's outburst, the mage deigned not to make it known. His frustration was shared with Zarik, but he would not be served by dividing their house in siding with one or the other. It would be best to reach out to him quietly, when the two were alone. Even if that could not alleviate his woes, it would be better than shaming him in the presence of the noble's new noble spouse.

When Zarik inquired with all due confusion as to why Alistair had not defended him, he only looked to him with a stare that beseeched his calm. Fortunately, the biqaj appeared to restrain his emotions easily after Alistair's apology, a testament to the keen mind of his chosen companion. It's okay, Asher, the mage repeated in his mind. Don't cry now. Already, he'd begun to treat him as if he were his child, seeking out the infant's comfort perhaps above his own. Alistair couldn't help but feel joy at the prospect of what their bond might be; what things between them could look like in the future. Glimpses of these thoughts flashed in his mind, as he wondered what a man with their blood would look like, and what type of person he would become.

Zarik continued to speak to him, and then to their son, with the same affection one would display to a loved one. Alistair continued to be uplifted, smiling softly at the moment, even despite the bitterness expressed by his friend only just now. Everything else had started to feel temporal. The wavering affections of others, even his friends... they all passed eventually, didn't they? Even Damien had been gone for some time, almost threatening to never return.

The infant biqaj began to laugh gleefully as his mother spoke to him with enthusiasm, giggling louder than he'd heard him in some time. I love your father, and I love you too. Alistair's heart warmed, and he pressed his lips forward, planting a soft kiss upon Zarik's forehead. "I love both of you," he said, quietly. Zarik spoke of the strong man he would become... like him... and the glimpses from before returned. The silhouette shifted into that of a warrior, but with a crown upon his head, a sword at his back. A handsome, grinning face with colorful eyes like theirs. With the two of them... both of them, he really could become a great man. Alistair wished for that so badly.

Tears began to gather in his transparently glossed eyes, threatening to pour.

...or is he too young for that? Zarik concluded, though the magister's focus had been diminished. "What?" he asked, as slow droplets of tears began to run across the surface of his cheeks. "I'm sorry, my love," he muttered, wiping away the wet sheen from his cheeks until they were dry, though his eyes remained slightly swollen as the moisture clung to his lower lids. "Games, did you ask?" he clarified. "I haven't been able to get that far with him, he's... well, he was only born in early Vhalar. Are there any games you played as a youth that you remember?" Alistair asked.

He took his lover's hand more firmly into his own, stroking the back of his palm with chills from his fingertips. His lips, then, parted again to speak. "I want him to grow kind like you. I knew few games myself as a child; save for, perhaps, the game of the ruling class. How to manipulate, undermine and extort. From when I first began to speak, I was taught how to lie, to control the minds of others. I don't want that sort of upbringing for him," he said, as if a plead. He could learn those things later, Alistair thought.
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Asher’s gleeful laughter
warmed Zarik to the core of his soul and he tossed Kleine’s snide remarks away from his thoughts. He gently bounced his knee a couple times to match in time with Asher’s playful giggles. Zarik relaxed, his gaze softening, when Alistair kissed his forehead. He made mention to his husband how strong their son would become. It felt right, and the realms of the unknown conquered common-based logic, as Zarik bonded with Asher. He sincerely cared for the newly met child in his arms and he held no doubt toward such a fact. He didn’t even have to think about it for how natural it felt.

Zarik asked about games, but… Alistair humbly cried. He smiled in a bemused expression. A sense of empathetic resonance struck a chord in him. He felt tears gather in his own eyes. He blinked them away. With one arm firmly balancing Asher on his lap, he lifted his other hand to touch Alistair’s face. His thumb smoothed out the beard, then brushed away one of the tears before he let go to return his hand to make sure Asher wouldn’t accidentally tip over. The child had started to grasp at him again. He offered his hand, letting the half-blood biqaj grab at the fingers and wrench them apart from one another in childish play.

“Don’t be sorry, my love,” murmured Zarik. He nodded. “Yes, games. Vhalar…” He leaned closer to Asher and whispered in the baby’s ear, “Aha, you’re a child of abundance. That is good.”

He glanced at Alistair, almost coy as if he’d told their son a secret that he wasn’t bound to share with the noble father. Zarik hummed in thought at the question of whether he remembered any games from his youth. He nodded and shared with a nostalgic expression, “I do remember some. They are some of the few memories I have from before I departed the sea. My sisters and I used to play a fun one called Fish in a Barrel, in which you fill a barrel of seawater, then one of you goes inside the barrel – the Fish - and the other two hold the lid on. The fish must prove they’re strong enough to push the lid off, or manage to stay under until... well, I usually was the fish and- oh- Ohh…” He blushed. “I guess, wait… Perhaps that wasn’t an actual game, now that I think about it…”

Zarik looked at Asher with blue eyes that became reflected in the watching child’s irises. He smiled. The baby seemed good at listening to adults talk. “We won’t play that one,” he told Asher and shook his head. He felt Alistair’s hand firmly hold his own hand and looked at his husband with an easy smile.

Alistair’s comment that Zarik was kind caused the ice-blond biqaj to subtly tilt his head. His bangs hung to the side from the slight angle. His smile remained, until he heard about the stark game of the ruling class. That sounded much worse than fish in a barrel. It sounded like a game that Zalazar would prefer though.

“Oh…” Zarik realized that Alistair was communicating with him about how he wanted Asher raised. He returned his attention to the child, tapping his fingertip against the boy’s nose and then playfully sticking his tongue out again. After the momentary distraction to entertain, he said, “We won’t play those types of games then. I do not enjoy lying… or…”

Zarik paused. His energy seemed to dip. He tapped his fingertips along Asher’s torso in a tickle to distract not only the child, but himself. But he could not control his eyes, for the color disappeared from them before being reconquered with crystalline blue irises. Zarik said, “Only happy games. Honest games. Games of… wonder and majesty. Ah, I know!”

He gathered Asher in his arms, gave Alistair a nodding gesture to move, then stood from the sofa. Holding onto the baby in a firm cradle that allowed Asher to sit up straight, Zarik started toward one of the plants in a tall vase. He plucked at a fern leaf with his hand, pulled it closer to Asher, and said, “What’s this? Asher, what do you think this is? It’s a leaf!”

While Asher grabbed at the fern, crunching the greenery in his grasp, Zarik looked over at Alistair. “It’s not exactly a game, but I used to enjoy this when I was young… and I still do, in a way.” He fluttered his eyelashes, bashful momentarily from the intimate comment. Alistair already knew Zarik’s perchance for curious exploration when it came to décor and new objects, something that likely would only be exacerbated due to becoming a mage of the transmutation domain.

Zarik walked them over to a nearby bookshelf. He adjusted Asher to his other arm, checked the balance, then tilted one of the books by the binding. Zarik raised an eyebrow at Asher, then spoke in a hushed voice, “What is this though? What… is… it?”

He pulled out the book, but instead of holding onto it, the tome fell to the floor. Zarik gasped, dramatically in an exaggerated sense of acting. He bounced Asher in his arm, then said, “Uh oh! Oh no, it fell. Should we get it? Or… oh, you think we should ask dad?”

Asher made a faint noise, tilting over in Zarik’s arms and trying to grab at the book from the floor. Zarik caught the boy, however, balancing him over his forearms as if the baby were lying on his stomach.

“Careful there, little one,” he said. He rocked Asher some, gently swaying as if the baby flew through the air. Zarik giggled along with the child and especially when Asher babbled, his little hands trying to grab the book that was a few feet below.

“Alistair, could you…” began Zarik, glancing at the book. He righted Asher so the baby was cradled again, then lightly nuzzled against Asher’s temple affectionately. “Go on, show him the pages then. He wants to see what it is. What is it, Asher? Is that a b-b-o-ok?” He sounded out the word this time, trying to guide the babbling that Asher had started.

Zarik continued this tour of the upper common room, leading with Alistair in tow to help when necessary. Eventually, he found a mirror and showed Asher himself. Their eyes flashed a few different colors in their reflections: blues and ambers and yellows and pinks, as if in a play unique to the biqaj-blooded, which absolutely thrilled – but then exhausted the baby.

Zarik handed their drowsy son over to Alistair. His arms burned, sore from all the careful holding and balancing, but it’d been worth it. He kissed his husband on the lips and said, “Thank you, my Soul. I never expected that I could feel like this. You continue to give, so generously, and I cannot find myself anything but grateful for your love of me. I’m sorry I might have seemed like I hesitated before, when you first brought your sons up… but… I know now that this is something I want, something that makes… everything, somehow, even better. How amazing you are, to have such a handsome, smart son like this and… and… care for him like you do. Gods, I love you so much, Alistair!” The volume of his voice increased during his enthusiastic words, without care if anyone heard.

His eyes flashed pink and violet. He added in a breathy voice, “Asher seems about asleep, we should settle him for a nap and… get ready for tonight’s supper, yes?”

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There was little to describe how he felt about the world as it unfolded before him, now, in this particular moment within time. It was like... observing a memory, with the details both cinematic and dwindled, motionless and vivid, with a sun's glare substituting the glean in one's eye as they smiled. He felt... a desire to transcribe it all, and he would, but he waited. He waited so that he could gather more of it - more beauty, and other such things that were ephemeral and would pass by if they were not properly observed. Every detail began to stick to his thoughts, the tone with which Asher cooed and babbled, and the way that Zarik held back his tears in the face of Alistair's own.

He spoke of his game - the fish in a barrel, and how it was usually him. Somehow, the small story stirred his heart in ways few words could, and his tears flowed again. The moistness returned to his cheeks, as his attempts to garner air from his environment were fragmented into broken whimpers that he attempted to keep from sounding into reality. He had no words for how he was feeling, but he knew what it felt like: the acknowledgment that he truly, truly loved Zarik, and everything about him. Hearing even of his bullying in that barrel was enough to stir the wrath of his vortexes as they channeled gradiently into an amber shade, an implicit message that he would never allow such a thing again.

And then, the rest came, and it was truly serene. He watched him play with his little boy - their little boy - and for once he felt that little Asher was truly happy. He'd never seen him smile so brightly, or giggle so gleefully, or scream with such childish endearment. In that moment, he saw it in Zarik's eyes, and his visage. He was Asher's true mother, not a replacement or a substitute. Their bond was not forged on wishes and dreams, but something... real. Even if not by blood. It wasn't a game anymore, and it wasn't an expectation that whispered to the man with both promise and doubt. Zarik really was the mother of his family, and he... could feel, for once, like a true father.

And that, really, kept the tears flowing as he sobbed with... laughter. He laughed and he cried and he laughed, watching the two play, seeing how happy they were. Alistair attended Zarik whenever he asked, helping him however he could, if only to keep the memory going as it unfolded before him. When his son grew tired from all the playing and all of the unfolding curiosities, he eagerly took him into his arms, holding him with a firm caress that would remind him that he was in the safety of his father's arms. He began to drift off to sleep, and the mage looked down at him, kissing the infant softly on the cheek before his teary eyes returned to the bright hues of his beloved.

Zarik spoke his gratitude, and the mage listened intently as he smiled at him, laughing lightly beneath his breath at so many of the things he said. He laughed louder as he expressed the immensity of his love, and the mage leaned to kiss him, still rocking the baby carefully within his grasp.

"Zarik... you..." he whimpered, balancing Asher more onto one arm as he raised an elbow to wipe at his eyes. "You make me feel like a true man. Like someone who deserves to feel... right with himself. Like someone who should be a husband, a father... a lover. Please, if there is anything you should ever remember between us -- it's that. More than anything," he said. "I love you. I love both of you. My family," the mage referred to them both fondly, pressing closer to his lover as he nestled Asher softly between them, kissing Zarik in endless, passionate presses of his lips.

"I will bring him to his crib," he said, softly. "But for supper... I've decided now that I will have no one else but the two of you present. I will allow no one to make you feel like you are not wanted here - like this isn't your home. Your place is forever by my side, and by his," he said, gently stroking their son's cheek. And then, into his lover's ear, he whispered. "I'll put Asher to bed. And then..." his voice grew low, and desirous, "I will join you in ours. Do you understand?"

The man's face pulled back, stepping towards Asher's room, though his body leaned forward to grab a book from the table as he passed. It seemingly appeared from nothing, though Alistair knew from where it came.

When all was done and the baby was put to rest, the mage sat beside him, seemingly chronicling the events that had just unfolded with his mind. Animated images bled throughout the pages of the book, in perfect detail as they shifted with his desires to play and replay the images that brought him the most joy. The book was his Compendium, a gift from Ralaith, and the stories he and Zarik shared became eternal within the pages. As his mind reached further back in memory, more pages filled, with images of their wedding within the chapel prior and their names within the book of recording. There were even voices, and the ambience of movement.

Though he thought the tears had finally unleashed their last droplets, they returned to his eyes as he looked again upon their first night together, where curiosity became reverence, reverence became desire, desire became love. He rearranged the pages, beginning to tell their story. If the Compendium became only a book of a love worth remembering ages beyond now, then so would it be.
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Man, Zarik is such a sweetheart. It breaks my heart to see this... situation he's in, even if it is making him happy. I enjoyed seeing the dynamic between him, Ali, and Kleine. Kept it interesting.

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    1. Caregiving: Children's development can be supplemented by games
    2. Caregiving: Shaping your child's personality early on
    3. Caregiving: Two parents is better than one
    4. Caregiving: Holding a child so that they don't fall
    5. Caregiving: Speaking directly to a child to teach them communication
    6. Caregiving: Biqaj can develop by mirroring one another
    7. Leadership: Mediating disputes within your household
    8. Leadership: Disenchanted followers must sometimes be soothed through time
  • Non-Skill Knowledges
    1. Zarik: A good parent for my children
    2. Zarik: Makes me feel like a man
    3. Zarik: Good to Asher
    4. Asher: Liked Zarik immediately
    5. Asher: Learning to express his emotions through colors, thanks to Zarik
    6. Asher: Seems comfortable with Zarik as his parent
    7. Kleine: Is angry with me
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    1. Caregiving: Distracting a child.
    2. Caregiving: Showing a child various objects.
    3. Caregiving: Teaching a child verbal concepts.
    4. Caregiving: Prioritizing a child’s mood over your own.
    5. Caregiving: Holding a child so that they don't fall.
    6. Etiquette: Sometimes Kindness Can Seem Patronizing
    7. Intimidation: The Silent Show of an Exclusive Intimate Bond
    8. Psychology: People will say cruel things about you if upset enough.
    9. Psychology: Communicating without words.
  • Non-Skill Knowledges
    1. Alistair: A Loving Father.
    2. Alistair: Didn’t defend me against Kleine’s insinuations.
    3. Alistair: Chose me and Asher to spend his birthdate with.
    4. Asher: Is also my son, blood-related or not.
    5. Asher: Biqaj eyes like my own.
    6. Asher: Half-blood biqaj.
    7. Kleine: Alistair’s dear friend and Asher’s caretaker.
    8. Kleine: A Snide Tongue.
    9. Kleine: Is angry at Alistair.
    10. Personal: I’m an adopted parent to Asher.
    11. Personal: My place is forever at Alistair’s side.
    12. Personal: Alistair’s friends don’t have to love me, but they must accept me as his spouse.
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