Unwelcomed Guest [memory]
24th Trial of Saun, 712th arc
The mountains of the southern continent felt pretty much like this during the Cold cycle. Maybe not the turnover into the deadly cold of Cylus, but at least the dead of Zi'da she was sure. But this was Saun! But this was also Viden. Still, the naer could scarcely believe it. She felt renewed appreciation for the precautions she'd quietly scorned as unnecessary when she'd been training for her mission.
Her Reapon superior had limited her mission budget to little more than the excessively warm clothes she'd kept in storage on the various ships she'd sailed to get here from Augiery. Once she'd reached the general "halfway" point of Ivorian, it seemed that both the weather, and the attitude of those she encountered grew steadily colder. But that part of the mission she had been prepared for; if only because the feeling was mutual.
In a way she glad of it. She'd been drummed out of Augiery as an exile, charged with the willful killing of a sister naer. It was true that she had saved her sabotage party in so doing, filling the wounded woman with a newly prepared dose of a fresh poison, found in the plants near Athart, where the operation was taking place. They had been given faulty intelligence as to what was the usual build of an Athartian scouting team. They'd been quickly outmanned, outflanked and outmaneuvered. But they had not been outclassed! Not by Naerikk standards anyway.
Linika knew it was the policy of sisters to give their lives for each other. In truth, her only crime was that she had not given her squad mate the courtesy of waiting for her to offer herself. Linika's quick chemistry had affected the woman's blood into carrying a contact toxin, and then she'd cut her bloody and sent her stumbling deliriously into the midst of the Athartians, dying in their arms, and spreading death.
The Invini had shown one face to Linika in private, praising her ruthless resourcefulness; and a second face to the rest of the Naerikk, calling her out as a murderer, despite the resulting success of the mission. It was made official that it was only the fact that it had saved the mission, and the rest of the party, that allowed a sentence of exile, rather than execution. It had been necessary, Linika understood. A deep cover story was going to be required to go to a location so hostile as Viden. The truth was, it was a tremendous honor to be selected for such a suicidal task.
So her trek north had been an endless act of guilt and humility as she encountered some that despised her as a naer, without having heard the tale of her being exiled as a traitor; and others that despised her because they had. By ship or by trail, it had been a relentless bowing of her head and murmuring of apologies. A few had accepted her contrition, and fewer still had actually befriended her. If they'd known the disdain she held for their weakling compassion, they'd have sung a different, stronger, tune.
"What are you grinning about, naer?" the question shook Linika out of her reverie. This was her one persistent failing, her inability to shut away the past, and her occasional want to glory in the suffering she was enduring for her sisterhood. By her cultural thinking, it was the one aspect of arrogance that her Naerikk heritage did not justify. Any fool could suffer for something they believed in. It was a naer's duty to suffer only for the glory of Audrae. And while she was suffering for the Great Mother, letting it slip out in a grin was counter-productive.
She put on a mask of tearful stoicism, "No sir, I'm sorry...I was not-..." she stopped mid-sentence, adding a wince for effect, "I am just so hungry, I would be glad to work for a meal." That part was more or less true. She'd been unable to get work with the pervasive hostility this culture held for members of her race. Her supplies had been exhausted a few trials earlier. She held her head down in mock shame, her voice quieting slightly with each word.
The man eyed her with disgust, "So the warrior bitch needs a job, eh?" he made no effort to remain quiet. He even raised his voice for the amusement of his patrons as he followed up, "Well, I guess I can use someone to empty the privy pots in my rooms upstairs. Screw it up though, and that's what you'll be eatin' for that meal."
Linika vowed silently to feed the man such a meal someday, as she nodded with a pained expression, which only added to the raucous laughter. She thought of benefiting them with a scene of tearful fleeing, but decided that would be going too far too soon. There would be a fine line she would need to follow to eventually garner trust and respect, rather than pity. So for now she resisted the urge to slam the clerk's face into his counter, and instead took rag and bucket in hand and headed for the stairs, trying to balance a look of resolve, resignation and obedience.
Her Reapon superior had limited her mission budget to little more than the excessively warm clothes she'd kept in storage on the various ships she'd sailed to get here from Augiery. Once she'd reached the general "halfway" point of Ivorian, it seemed that both the weather, and the attitude of those she encountered grew steadily colder. But that part of the mission she had been prepared for; if only because the feeling was mutual.
In a way she glad of it. She'd been drummed out of Augiery as an exile, charged with the willful killing of a sister naer. It was true that she had saved her sabotage party in so doing, filling the wounded woman with a newly prepared dose of a fresh poison, found in the plants near Athart, where the operation was taking place. They had been given faulty intelligence as to what was the usual build of an Athartian scouting team. They'd been quickly outmanned, outflanked and outmaneuvered. But they had not been outclassed! Not by Naerikk standards anyway.
Linika knew it was the policy of sisters to give their lives for each other. In truth, her only crime was that she had not given her squad mate the courtesy of waiting for her to offer herself. Linika's quick chemistry had affected the woman's blood into carrying a contact toxin, and then she'd cut her bloody and sent her stumbling deliriously into the midst of the Athartians, dying in their arms, and spreading death.
The Invini had shown one face to Linika in private, praising her ruthless resourcefulness; and a second face to the rest of the Naerikk, calling her out as a murderer, despite the resulting success of the mission. It was made official that it was only the fact that it had saved the mission, and the rest of the party, that allowed a sentence of exile, rather than execution. It had been necessary, Linika understood. A deep cover story was going to be required to go to a location so hostile as Viden. The truth was, it was a tremendous honor to be selected for such a suicidal task.
So her trek north had been an endless act of guilt and humility as she encountered some that despised her as a naer, without having heard the tale of her being exiled as a traitor; and others that despised her because they had. By ship or by trail, it had been a relentless bowing of her head and murmuring of apologies. A few had accepted her contrition, and fewer still had actually befriended her. If they'd known the disdain she held for their weakling compassion, they'd have sung a different, stronger, tune.
"What are you grinning about, naer?" the question shook Linika out of her reverie. This was her one persistent failing, her inability to shut away the past, and her occasional want to glory in the suffering she was enduring for her sisterhood. By her cultural thinking, it was the one aspect of arrogance that her Naerikk heritage did not justify. Any fool could suffer for something they believed in. It was a naer's duty to suffer only for the glory of Audrae. And while she was suffering for the Great Mother, letting it slip out in a grin was counter-productive.
She put on a mask of tearful stoicism, "No sir, I'm sorry...I was not-..." she stopped mid-sentence, adding a wince for effect, "I am just so hungry, I would be glad to work for a meal." That part was more or less true. She'd been unable to get work with the pervasive hostility this culture held for members of her race. Her supplies had been exhausted a few trials earlier. She held her head down in mock shame, her voice quieting slightly with each word.
The man eyed her with disgust, "So the warrior bitch needs a job, eh?" he made no effort to remain quiet. He even raised his voice for the amusement of his patrons as he followed up, "Well, I guess I can use someone to empty the privy pots in my rooms upstairs. Screw it up though, and that's what you'll be eatin' for that meal."
Linika vowed silently to feed the man such a meal someday, as she nodded with a pained expression, which only added to the raucous laughter. She thought of benefiting them with a scene of tearful fleeing, but decided that would be going too far too soon. There would be a fine line she would need to follow to eventually garner trust and respect, rather than pity. So for now she resisted the urge to slam the clerk's face into his counter, and instead took rag and bucket in hand and headed for the stairs, trying to balance a look of resolve, resignation and obedience.

