The last moments of heat had left that trial and she had thought, earlier in the afternoon, that they might have snow tonight. Standing in the street, Faith felt the snowflakes landing on her and she looked at them in apparent amazement at their presence. Light flurries, melting as soon as it hit and unlikely to stick anywhere was what was happening, but the simple, usual rhythmn of that, the utterly predictable nature of the weather and its patterns were too much for the young woman. Her heart was pounding in her chest and her breaths came in small, desperate, gulps. Like even the task of taking in air was new to her, too much for her. It felt like it was, in truth.
She had stepped outside and closed the door carefully and then she had turned and walked, swiftly. She did so without purpose or any destination in her mind other than away. She had to get away because, if she did not, then she would waiver and run back in to him. But she had to leave, it was her duty.
Duty.
That word calmed her. Famula, her blessed Famula would guide and protect her and Faith had to serve, to serve Her as well as she could and this panic was unacceptable. It would achieve nothing and it would not allow her to do what she needed to do. So, the young woman breathed in, the cold of the night air almost burning her nose as she inhaled an enormous breath and then released it slowly through her mouth. Alright. She just had to think, think what to do. He had told her that she could stay, but she had insisted. He had told her that he would give her money, but she told him that he did not need to, she had somewhere to go. Which she did, she knew. She had a number of places where she would be welcome, without question and as her mind cleared, she knew that she had to get indoors somewhere.
She was lucky, she knew that ~ she had friends that she could go to but there were two of them specifically who had told her that she was always welcome in their home; Lady Elyna and Padraig. Come to that, Faith realised, she did not actually know where either Nir'wei or Aeon lived. She could guess, on both counts, because of their jobs but it was late and dark and that made her options limited. Lady Elyna and Lord Krome lived outside of town and had a small baby. Also, Lady Elyna was Tristan's friend too and Faith had no wish to put her in a situation where she felt uncomfortable, although she could image Lady Elyna's reaction to that immediately and with a smile. Padraig's house was closer and he had been quite insistent that she had somewhere to go should she need it and, if she was honest, the thought of seeing him right now calmed her in a way that nothing else did. He would be calm, he would be logical and he was safe, she knew. She looked around with the intention of getting her bearings and she started to move to the place that she realised she was always going to go as soon as he had freed her. She hurried, because it was never entirely safe to be out alone, especially in the dark. The brands gave her an element of protection. but not much; they were as likely to label her victim as off limits, even when one of them was the Venora rose.
The sound of her feet tapping against the paving stones echoed the rhythmn of her walk; not a run but far from slow or even casual. Panic continued to build in her as she thought about what her decision had cost her, what it meant now. There were so many things which she simply did not understand, did not know and she was not sure that she was strong enough or brave enough to do this. Rounding the corner which she had rounded so many times before, Faith skidded to a halt and watched the snow falling, disappearing on the ground in front of her. She was shivering, maybe with cold, but she did not really notice it and she prayed once more to Famula that She might forgive Her humble servant for her weakness. Because she felt weak. She felt cold and weak and alone and she recognised, standing there, that she felt like she could not do this alone but that the next thing that she did meant that she would not be alone, she had somewhere to go.
Why had she known, immediately and instinctively that she would come here? No, she couldn't think about, things were falling in around her and she could not fit any more in her head. Stepping to the door, she tapped with gentle motions against it, as she had done so often before. It took a few moments and she had, in fact, started to consider whether she should tap again or go away, when the door opened. Standing at his doorstep was Faith, shivering with cold in an entirely fashionable and utterly impractical dress with a pair of mid-height shoes. Her hair had been in curls but now had come undone and was half-pinned half-loose about her shoulders. She carried no bags with her, had no belongings but her eyes were as wide as if she had seen a ghost and when she spoke even her voice shook.
"I haven't got anywhere else to go and you said that I could... I haven't run away but he.. he", the next words stuck in her throat and she gave a loud gulp, as though swallowing her panic. Breathing in, she tried to calm down and then spoke again "Can I stay here, please?"
She had stepped outside and closed the door carefully and then she had turned and walked, swiftly. She did so without purpose or any destination in her mind other than away. She had to get away because, if she did not, then she would waiver and run back in to him. But she had to leave, it was her duty.
Duty.
That word calmed her. Famula, her blessed Famula would guide and protect her and Faith had to serve, to serve Her as well as she could and this panic was unacceptable. It would achieve nothing and it would not allow her to do what she needed to do. So, the young woman breathed in, the cold of the night air almost burning her nose as she inhaled an enormous breath and then released it slowly through her mouth. Alright. She just had to think, think what to do. He had told her that she could stay, but she had insisted. He had told her that he would give her money, but she told him that he did not need to, she had somewhere to go. Which she did, she knew. She had a number of places where she would be welcome, without question and as her mind cleared, she knew that she had to get indoors somewhere.
She was lucky, she knew that ~ she had friends that she could go to but there were two of them specifically who had told her that she was always welcome in their home; Lady Elyna and Padraig. Come to that, Faith realised, she did not actually know where either Nir'wei or Aeon lived. She could guess, on both counts, because of their jobs but it was late and dark and that made her options limited. Lady Elyna and Lord Krome lived outside of town and had a small baby. Also, Lady Elyna was Tristan's friend too and Faith had no wish to put her in a situation where she felt uncomfortable, although she could image Lady Elyna's reaction to that immediately and with a smile. Padraig's house was closer and he had been quite insistent that she had somewhere to go should she need it and, if she was honest, the thought of seeing him right now calmed her in a way that nothing else did. He would be calm, he would be logical and he was safe, she knew. She looked around with the intention of getting her bearings and she started to move to the place that she realised she was always going to go as soon as he had freed her. She hurried, because it was never entirely safe to be out alone, especially in the dark. The brands gave her an element of protection. but not much; they were as likely to label her victim as off limits, even when one of them was the Venora rose.
The sound of her feet tapping against the paving stones echoed the rhythmn of her walk; not a run but far from slow or even casual. Panic continued to build in her as she thought about what her decision had cost her, what it meant now. There were so many things which she simply did not understand, did not know and she was not sure that she was strong enough or brave enough to do this. Rounding the corner which she had rounded so many times before, Faith skidded to a halt and watched the snow falling, disappearing on the ground in front of her. She was shivering, maybe with cold, but she did not really notice it and she prayed once more to Famula that She might forgive Her humble servant for her weakness. Because she felt weak. She felt cold and weak and alone and she recognised, standing there, that she felt like she could not do this alone but that the next thing that she did meant that she would not be alone, she had somewhere to go.
Why had she known, immediately and instinctively that she would come here? No, she couldn't think about, things were falling in around her and she could not fit any more in her head. Stepping to the door, she tapped with gentle motions against it, as she had done so often before. It took a few moments and she had, in fact, started to consider whether she should tap again or go away, when the door opened. Standing at his doorstep was Faith, shivering with cold in an entirely fashionable and utterly impractical dress with a pair of mid-height shoes. Her hair had been in curls but now had come undone and was half-pinned half-loose about her shoulders. She carried no bags with her, had no belongings but her eyes were as wide as if she had seen a ghost and when she spoke even her voice shook.
"I haven't got anywhere else to go and you said that I could... I haven't run away but he.. he", the next words stuck in her throat and she gave a loud gulp, as though swallowing her panic. Breathing in, she tried to calm down and then spoke again "Can I stay here, please?"



