"Sad for me?" she wondered and listened to what Lady Elyna had to say about it. She nodded in understanding and her face lit in a smile "Your baby will be loved, Lady Elyna, no doubting it" but as for her? "Well, I suppose that the way I see it is different. I do not know what else there was, because I have no experience of it. So I have no regrets, because I do not know how things could be different. But I know that I am happy now, and so I have no regrets because of that fact too" she put down the knitting in her hands for a moment, resting her hands one on top of the other "Regret seems like a futile thing to me. Always has. If there is something I do not like about the past, then I can learn from it, or I can work to not repeat it. Or, of course, I can accept it. But I can not change it, so why would I try?" she shrugged slightly and looked back down at the small hat, growing quickly, her hands moving back to their task. "Or so I have always believed. I think perhaps it is easier to accept my lack of power to change the past because I lack the same to make choices in the present" she explained with a smile.
Looking at the hem of the dress that Lady Elyna had made, Faith raised an eye and asked, in her usual soft voice, if she could see. "It is beautiful. Love in every stitch" she smiled. But the conversation they were having was about something, and something else too.
"When Jamal owned me, he was cruel. That was simply how it was and it was what I knew. It was my place. Master tells me that I am a treasure, he cares about me. I have a friend" she said and she smiled at the woman who held the title. "It is terrifying to me" she admitted, but her expression told that it was a good terror. "By caring about you, about Master, then I give you permission to hurt me in a way that Jamal simply could not. But I do it trusting that you will not. For every training technique" she avoided the word torture, thinking that Lady Elyna would not like it "I have been subjected to, I know that being let down by someone who I had let into my heart would hurt more. But the only thing I can consider is that the kind of pain one feels when someone you love hurts you must be like a brand." she motioned to the Venora rose on her shoulder. "While it happens, it hurts so it is all you can feel. Then, over time, it fades. But it leaves a mark that never goes" she shrugged and shook her head. Possibly a flight of her own fancy, she considered, who knew? Holding the hat up she showed Lady Elyna where she was. "I start to decrease now, and as I do it will pull closer and closer together until it is hat shaped. Or at least, that is the plan. Where will you have the baby, Lady Elyna?" she asked, concerned that she would be out here alone.
That seemed like a bad idea to Faith but she said nothing until she heard what Lady Elyna planned.
Looking at the hem of the dress that Lady Elyna had made, Faith raised an eye and asked, in her usual soft voice, if she could see. "It is beautiful. Love in every stitch" she smiled. But the conversation they were having was about something, and something else too.
"When Jamal owned me, he was cruel. That was simply how it was and it was what I knew. It was my place. Master tells me that I am a treasure, he cares about me. I have a friend" she said and she smiled at the woman who held the title. "It is terrifying to me" she admitted, but her expression told that it was a good terror. "By caring about you, about Master, then I give you permission to hurt me in a way that Jamal simply could not. But I do it trusting that you will not. For every training technique" she avoided the word torture, thinking that Lady Elyna would not like it "I have been subjected to, I know that being let down by someone who I had let into my heart would hurt more. But the only thing I can consider is that the kind of pain one feels when someone you love hurts you must be like a brand." she motioned to the Venora rose on her shoulder. "While it happens, it hurts so it is all you can feel. Then, over time, it fades. But it leaves a mark that never goes" she shrugged and shook her head. Possibly a flight of her own fancy, she considered, who knew? Holding the hat up she showed Lady Elyna where she was. "I start to decrease now, and as I do it will pull closer and closer together until it is hat shaped. Or at least, that is the plan. Where will you have the baby, Lady Elyna?" she asked, concerned that she would be out here alone.
That seemed like a bad idea to Faith but she said nothing until she heard what Lady Elyna planned.
