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Celeste and Andraska spend more time together in Krome Manor.

83rd of Ashan 717

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"My two natures had memory in common."
  • 83rd of Ashan, 717
  • Andraska had been permitted to stay in Krome and he had come to only one conclusion during his entire visit:
    • It was cursed.
    Not only had the solace of a nearby forest done nothing but give him more nightmares and a sense of paranoia, but he had come back to find that Celeste Andaris had yet another attempt on her life!

    “I want to see her,” he pressed one of the guards, who had repeatedly denied him access to her quarters, “Just tell her I want to talk. Is she alright?” In fact, he had felt quite helpless, but understood why no one heeded his request. There had been a traitor – an attempted murderer – in their midst. After all, he was a guest with no real authority here. No matter how much the noblewoman seemed to enjoy his company, it wasn't surprising he would be denied unless she came to him. After all, had Celeste not also trusted her hand maiden?

    And so the day had passed on, leaving Andráska to do very little but roam the grounds and try not to sink further into his ever darkening thoughts. Once or twice, he offered a prayer to the immortals Pier and Pre, but the most he could do was a silent promise to the latter, 'Still alive' he mentally whispered, imagining the latter immortal in his mind, 'Any news?'

    Of course, no answer.

    He hadn't seen or heard anything that might suggest they had still taken an interest to him, but he could still remember the way Pre kissed his hand and made her promise. All he had to do was keep living – he had many great things to do after all... apparently. But he didn't feel great. In fact, he had slept very little given his own haunting and the stress his friend must be feeling. He wanted to do something, anything, and yet he couldn't.

    It was early morn now, the sun not even having fully risen, and he paced idly down the hallways, trying to use the time for something beneficial. Down the stairs, take a right, turn around, repeat. He would sometimes curiously open a door to find a spare bedroom, or a latrine. Nothing overly dramatic, the more important things being guarded and he could feel the eyes of the servants watching him when he moved. He was learning the layout of the estate, the entry and exit points, and he returned their attention with his own, eyeing them with the assessing, silent quality of a guard. He looked for anything out of the ordinary, if the way they walked could reveal their true intentions and as he moved. Finally, as his stomach growled and he could smell the first bits of breakfast being cooked, he proceeded his exploration until he came upon a ballroom.

    The curtains had just been drawn to let in whatever sunlight would soon flood in, but the room was still dim with freshly lit candles and off to the side of the room sat a piano. Andráska hesitated when he saw it, something yearning within him to approach the black and white keys. Slowly he made his way to it, looking over his shoulder conspiratorially, and then to his hand that sat resting in a sling. He had almost zero experience with the piano itself, but he needed to... play an instrument. Even with his hand. He was desperate.

    Pulling out the bench, he lifted the seat and began rummaging through its content. To his delight and surprise were a number of scores, as well as a thin paperback tome for beginners. He concluded that they must have been from childhood lessons, and he quickly pulled it out and settled upon the seat, flipping open the first page.

    Already having a background in reading music, it was almost too easy to get settled. He wasn't sure how long he sat there, familiarizing himself with the two clefs used in piano playing, as well as what note each key represented.

    Treble. Bass. He was familiar with the bass clef, treble he was rusty on, but it was pretty much all the same. How ticky it must be to read both lines at once. And... each hand doing opposite things? He was quickly absorbed in the knowledge, fascinated at how different it was to his own musical instrument of choice, and gently lifted his good hand to press the middle C, after a brief moment to locate it.

    Black keys can be sharps or flats... There were 88 keys in total. He continued to skim over the knowledge, noting the section that informed the reader of proper finger form, and made sure to practice, arching his to make a bridge, using his tips. And then, after a few more clumsy attempts, when he felt like he was beginning to grasp an understanding, he flipped the page and read over the first score. It was a lullaby, a simple tune for learners, and he hummed through it first, his foot gently tapping the ground as he read through it, just as he would for a more complicated number.

    His music teacher had always said to never be embarrassed to play the basics. 'Embrace them. Love them. For they would be the foundation of your skill.' His hand caressed the keys and with one hand, he pressed downward with care, one note after another reverberating through the ballroom as a song began to brighten Krome manor, and the sun began to rise.
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As she walked down the stairs to breakfast, Celeste heard the strangest noise. It sounded like someone was playing the piano and she listened with astonishment. It would not be Xander, she did not think, no, of the people here in Krome Manor, the one most likely to be playing the piano was Andraska Venora, who was currently visiting.

She hadn't seen him yestertrial, of course, as it had taken some time for the drugs in her system to wear off. In fact, as battered and bruised as Celeste was, leaning there in the doorway, she looked better than she had since he'd arrived. Her face had a vivid bruise on one side, where the "maid" had backhanded her, but the colour under the bruises was a much more healthy shade and her eyes no longer held the listlessness which they had.

Watching him as he played, Celeste considered for a few moments what a strange thing this friendship between her and Andraska was. Maybe it was because they were both the youngest sibling, maybe it was circumstance or even blind luck, but whatever it was she was thankful for it. After all, she had one friend and he was here, playing the piano. So, moving softly so as not to disturb him, the young lady moved and then sat next to him. "You are very clever for working it all out. I always wanted to be able to play an instrument, you know. Would you teach me?" She turned her brown eyes to look at him and smiled.

"My maid tried to suffocate me in my sleep. I woke up." Celeste smiled and it was a rather wry expression. "Xander broke the door down getting to me. But I tackled her to the ground and was trying to pound her. It was most unladylike. But it was also an improvement." Looking at Andraska with a calm gaze, she spoke in a soft voice. "When Rafael Warrick stabbed me, I fainted in fright, after all." Did she 'let slip' the name of her attacker on purpose? Her eyes met Andraska's and she hoped that he understood why she very much did do that intentionally.

"I would ask you to do nothing with that information which might put you in harm. You are my friend and I could not live with the guilt of the decision I just made if it hurt you." But it was a decision, there was no doubting it. It was a decision and an admission of trust.

"Why are some of them white and others black?" Celeste asked, touching the keys with a reverence which could not be faked.
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"My two natures had memory in common."
  • 83rd of Ashan, 717
  • The music lilted through the room, skipping around as Andras' fingers attempted to keep up with the pace of his mind, mouth slowly settling into a focused line as he tried not to let his mistakes catch him up. Even as Celeste approach he did not stop, staring at the score, so absorbed in his practice. He saw her from the corner of his eyes, trying to use his peripheals, but could not make out her features. Instead he noticed a woman, the color of her outfit, and a flash of dark hair. He assumed a servant come to announce breakfast, but when she settled besides him and the familiar voice of his friend tickled his ear, he finally smiled, his finger still moving as his fingers struggled finding a key in perfect time.

    His brow lifted, even as he kept his attention on the music, “You want to learn?” For some reason, it seemed surprsing that she might not know a musical instrument, but had to remind himself that not every duchy emphasized the arts like his own. He finally let his eyes lift when the piece indicated a rather long note, but when he saw the new bruise on her face, his hand lifted so suddenly, a grand silence slammed itself upon the room, deafening it.

    Andraska's appearance must have resembled the same distressed questioning as the day before, because without prompting, Celeste began to offer an explanation, recalling the events with the maid. Andras listened, hand falling from the keys and back to his lap. She told him that Xander had broken down the door to get to her, and his face remained a nuetral mask. Perhaps he should respect the other lord more, and he made a mental note to thank him. The Venora carefully lifted his fingers to graze Celeste's cheek, leaning slightly to assess the damage.

    And then she told him what he had been wanting to hear.

    The name of her other attacker. Rafael Warrick. Something dark flashed in his eyes and he returned his hand to the instrument. She told him she did not wish the information to bring him harm and he thought that amusing. They were noble born, they had theoretically been in danger since the day they were born. Knowing this now would not put him in further danger, for he was always at risk. Did Celeste realize the state of the streets? How the people rioted? How the cobblestone cried for bloodshed?

    No, Rafael Warrick was only a small piece – one that he would revel in crushing if given the chance, but for now? Andraska did not know who was listening, so he made no open promises, but spoke carefully, “You might not ask, but you need not to. Your enemies are mine.” His tone was low and his eyes revealed his fury, even if his body did not. He was trying very hard to be contained, all his righteous passion bubbling within him like a toxic rage. Tina had said someone with a sigil had attacked the monks. Could that have also been Rafael? 'What good is a friendship – an alliance – if they do not stand by you in times of war? He hoped she understood his words as he looked into her eyes, “You deserve justice.” Revenge.

    He released a slow breath, pushing his emotions back, and tried to focus on Celeste, how she tenderly touched the keys and asked the question about the colors. So quick to push past her troubles, whereas he seemed to soak up the things that haunted him, choosing to dwell on his demons. How had they found one another?

    Seeing her so close to him, he knew how tired she must have been. Two attempts on her life, an (albeit promising) arranged engagement, and the unknown fate of her brother (or was it brothers? He wasn't quite sure). The noble woman had said Xander knew... and yet... where were the drums of war? Why had not justice been demanded? There had not been any word sent to Venora when he had arrived back to the island; had they been waiting? Why?

    Celeste was always doing what she was told with poise and a collected demeanor. But for all the things she did for Andaris, for Krome, for everyone else – was her own voice being heard? He scooted closer to share the little book between them and flipped back a few pages.

    “Well,” he breathed, trying to figure out where to start. If she didn't play an instrument, he doubted she knew what the notes were, or if they were sharp or flat. “A piece of music is like... a set of instructions for understanding the musician.” He pointed to the swirling of the treble clef, tapping it, “These markings” he pointed to the bass clef, “tell you what each of these lines and spaces mean. What the notes are...See how each note rests on a line, or between them? They each have a meaning, called notes. A sound.”

    He glanced upwards at Celeste, not realizing how invested he sounded when he spoke of music, but feared it came off as crazy talk. He had been playing so long, and no one had ever asked him to teach them. Reading music came so naturally now, it was like a second language, “I don't play the piano,” he admitted, a small smile pulling at his lips, “I play the cello and I have a broken arm, so I might not be the best teacher, but...”

    Andras reached out to tap a key. Its note rang out clearly, and he shrugged, “Each key is a note. The black key... are like in-between notes?” Always better at demonstrating than explaining, he pushed the middle C and slowly began to move his hand across each key, his fingers lowering and rising, stepping upon the black keys, as they went “C...” 'Black key' “C sharp.” 'White key' “D...” 'Black key' “D sharp...”

    He wondered if she was understanding and grinned, “You asked a hard question if you don't know how to read music.I'll have to come to Andaris manor and give you a proper lesson.” He slid the book towards her so that she may get a better look, and caught another glimpse of her bruise. He cleared his throat, shifting, “I could... I could also give you a lesson or two in self defense, if you'd like.”

    Andras watched his blurred reflection in the glossy wood, “I know most people think lady's need to be protected and prim, but... If something were to happen again and Xander was not there... If you weren't safe... You should be able to show our enemies what happens when they corner a dragon.”
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"My mother played." Celeste responded when Andraska asked her if she wanted to learn, and he sounded surprised. "Piano, harp, flute. She had a beautiful voice, too. She was teaching me, but then she died and I did not want to learn any more." It was a simple representation of a much more complex truth, but there it was. "Once Xander and I are married, we will start a family. I want my children to hear the sound of music in their home and to grow up listening to their mother sing and play."

As she spoke, he looked up at her and silence fell in the room as his hand moved to stroke her cheek. Celeste looked at him, her brown eyes meeting his as his fingers caressed her cheek. She did not say anything, did not flinch or move away. Instead, she watched him for a moment.

But then, she did. She made a decision and it was one which she could not regret. It was not what Xander would want, she knew, but he had made it clear that it was her decision. So, she looked at Andraska as he said that she deserved justice and she returned the gesture he had just made, her hand stroking his cheek, just a brief touch. "As are yours mine, Lord Venora." Loyalty, after all, was everything.

In more ways than one, she reminded herself and turned her gaze to the keys. Sitting together with Andraska, she leaned closer to listen to him and to look at the notation. He spoke with such passion when he spoke of music, Celeste listened avidly, because surely nothing else was acceptable. "So, each note represents a key of the piano, or string of the harp or cello?" He confirmed it and then spoke of C and C sharp. So, the black keys were the half steps, in terms of notes, she supposed. With her eyes roaming over the keyboard, she saw the pattern there. "Five black keys to every seven white ones. A repeating pattern, so do the notes start again on the eighth, but higher or lower? Is this," she pressed an F key, "the same letter as this?" Having considered the placement of the black keys, she pressed the F key an octave higher.

He offered to teach her and Celeste beamed with delight. "I would love to learn, if you would teach me." He then extended it, though, and offered to teach her self defense. Her gaze turned on him and she had a look of some confusion in her eyes. "Xander asked me to learn, too. He's determined to protect me but worried about failing and wants me to be able to fend off those who might try again. I'm afraid of conflict, Andraska. I freeze." Her fingers picked notes here and there, enjoying the feeling of the instrument. "I want to learn differently, but I was concerned to make that known if we hired someone. I would love to say yes, but I must be honest and tell you that I will test your patience, I am afraid." She gave a grin, but it was self depreciating. "I am a big girlie scaredy cat."
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"My two natures had memory in common."
  • 83rd of Ashan, 717
  • Celeste was a quick learner, picking up on the things her mother taught her rather well. He was pleasantly surprised, grinning, “That's right,” he muttered, a little in awe to have someone recognize the same patterns that came to easily to him, “Look at you,” he grinned, a welcome sight on his face, “A prodigy in the making.” He had been trying to avoid terms like half steps, but she seemed to know more than she had let on.

    He focused on the music, not allowing himself to get distracted by her touch or the returned gesture of loyalty. He watched what notes she pressed, trying to find the compliments on his side of the keys. Celeste told him that Xander had wished the same and it made sense. If they were close and cared for one another, it was something to be expected, and yet... she seemed reserved about it.

    “Even kittens have claws, Celeste. Here-”

    Andras scooted away, sliding out of the piano bench and moving to stand behind it, extending a hand to the woman if she'd take it, “It'll be alright,” he vowed, looking for signs of discomfort. “I know... it a little soon after everything, but... I'm pretty patient. Look, you don't even have to touch me.”

    Moving with more vigor than the day before, he headed towards the center of the open room, taking the imaginary stage,“Since self defense is a bit more physical, you'll just have to use your imagination.”

    Andráska Venora cleared his throat, and began his lesson, “Assuming your next attacker is male, you're going to have a few obvious disadvantages. Size, weight, strength...” His fingers lifted to display each count, “But, fighting is a lot more complicated. If you know your opponents weaknesses, you've already leveled the playing field.”

    He wondered what Celeste was thinking, “If you really don't want to learn, I'll leave it at that. We can grab breakfast or...” Looking at her face while he quieted, he offered an understanding smile and he gave a small motion, in hopes she would join him, “I won't hurt you. I promise. Nothing to be scared of.”
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Sitting in that room, the two of them, Celeste realised that their way of being together, the manner in which they fell into intense conversation then easy banter, could easily be misinterpreted. She was many things, many of which were far from a good person and she was ruthless in a lot of ways but Celeste Andaris was loyal. So, she was glad to focus on the music although she looked up at him and grinned when he said that kittens had claws.

Andraska stood, though, and she took his hand and did the same. There was no hesitation in the taking of his hand, although her face showed her curiosity and she watched with interest as he moved into the middle of the room. Size, weight, strength. Those things, she knew and understood. But turning an opponents strengths into her own to level the field? "You make it sound like politics." Celeste quipped, but then a frown crossed her face. "It is about tactics, maneuvering, outwitting? Is that what you mean?" Because actually, that was what politics was.

He asked if she would join him and he gave her an escape. "I know you won't. I trust you," he had never given her reason not to, in fact just the opposite. So, she stepped forwards and nodded her head. "Physical conflict terrifies me, Andraska. I freeze. I need to not freeze." Her brown eyes turned to him and she knew that he would understand and yet not question. "It is worse when it is with a man and the feeling of a hand on my throat, I.." she stopped and looked away from him for a trill, just regaining her composure. "Why do they always go for the throat?"

Breathing in, she looked at him and thought about it. "You are taller than me. So your reach is longer. If your reach were longer politically, I would make sure that our battleground was up close and personal." Could she compare the two. "You are heavier than me, so you have more power. Therefore, I must take advantage of my lightness, ensure that I slip past you, where you do not expect me?" With a smile at him she looked at opened her hands in a questioning gesture.

"Politics is all about attitude. If you go in thinking you'll lose, you've already lost. Are you really telling me that combat can draw those parallels?"

If he was, she considered, then really that turned her thinking around on its head. Yet, it almost made sense. His words on recognizing strength to level the playing field had done that, prompted that realisation and it might just make a difference, she thought.
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  • 83rd of Ashan, 717
  • When Celeste spoke of the terror of physical conflict, he settled into his spot, arm lowering slightly as he read her body language. She looked away, only for a trill, but it brought him back to the first time he saw her. How cautious she was, the marks on her neck and face. He had said nothing then, afraid to upset her within their first meeting, but now saw what he should have long ago. Someone had hurt her. Maybe multiple times, and he because of it – now she was scared.

    Why do they always go for the throat?

    The question pained him, pulling his own memories forward and then she was pushing onward, comparing it to politics. He listened and learned, never having made the connection before, “Something like that,” he muttered, caught up on her inquiry.

    He wanted to ask, but... he couldn't bring himself to do so, and instead he began to speak, “The throat is vulnerable. It makes the victim panic. It lets them control how your breathe and in essence... live.” He looked to the ground, “I've been choked quite a bit, Celeste, and I've hated it every time, because every time it happened, I was young and I was helpless.”

    He stepped closer, eyes darkening and a cold smirk pulled at his lips, “But now... “ He blinked with a conspiring look, shrugging nonchalantly, as if he wasn't hinting that he would end them. That he wasn't formidable enough or willing to kill any man or woman who tried to hurt him in the same way. Andraska wasn't a teenager, nor a child. He had seen death, caused it. He wouldn't be controlled so easily.

    Andráska slipped back to the lesson, “The thing about having a short reach, is that you will need to get close, however, you also need to be careful, because a larger man, is still powerful and you risk getting trapped. If you're getting choked from the front,” Andras lifted his hand and didn't touch her, only hovered over her neck, “Imagine my other arm worked,” he grinned, continuing, “Then a lot of people might suggest you pull down at the elbows.”

    “That might work, but if your opponent is a lot stronger than you, its useless. It won't budge. Here, try.” He waited, allowing her time to pull down on his arm if she wanted, locking it in place so it was unmovable. Even battered, he had a lot of muscle from continual training, and was quite strong despite his gentle disposition, “What you want to do,” he rested his hand on her shoulder, “Put your hands together like you're praying, bring them upwards between my arms, which would be holding your neck, and you would try to drive your fingers straight into my eyes.”

    He winked, showing off his bright green orbs, “They say you should be honorable, but sometimes, you have to fight dirty if you want to live.” After all, choking your opponent wasn't exactly the knight standard, “So, once you do that, you can grab the back of my neck. Once, twice,” On each count, he leaned forward, slow motioning a headbutt against her own forehead, barely tapping her, “Then shove me away. Boom, I'm blinded. My face is busted, and you can get away.”

    Andráska released her, taking a breath, and dramatically fell to the ground as if she had pushed him, clutching his face before he looked up at her with a playful grin, “Any questions?”
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Oh, he knew. Looking at him, the way Andraska looked at her, Celeste realised that he knew, or at least suspected, the truth of her life. He wouldn't ask though and for that she was grateful. In truth, she was grateful for Andraska in all sorts of ways and this was just one more.

His admission, of having been choked previously, brought her up short and Celeste looked at him in surprise. She didn't hide the expression, nor did she ask. He'd told her, after all; he was young and helpless. What had changed was him and she knew that what needed to change here was her. So much easier said than done, though, and a slow process no matter what.

She was still helpless.

He was right, though. The control of breathing was such an exercise in control. She had never been more afraid than when her brother had dipped her head into the bath water; the fear that she would drown was enormous and the feeling of helplessness was overwhelming.

Standing there with her friend, Celeste looked at him and she thanked the seven for Andraska Venora in that moment. He didn't touch her, and because of his injuries she even had to imagine his second arm being in place at all; yet he demonstrated. Nodding her head, she tried to pull down on his elbow, first with one hand and then with both. She gave a tug, but it was immovable and Celeste chuckled. "I could hang off you, but I can't make it move, no."

The tactic he gave her, though, caused Celeste to look up in more than surprise and closer to shock. "The eyes? But.." but he was my brother, she wanted to say and the words held in her throat. Yet she couldn't help it, she smiled when he head-bumped her once, then again and when he fell to the floor the smile turned into a laugh. "Andraska, you amaze me. Get up, you mad man." She offered her hand to him to pull himself up if he wished it.

Were there any questions? She supposed that she had to ask the obvious one. "How do you make..how should I make myself move when fear paralyses me, Andraska? I can know this, but... I just panic. Blind panic is the only word for it, I see nothing, understand nothing. It's just total and overwhelming fear." Coupled with flashbacks, of course. "It's like being trapped by myself."

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  • "How do you make..how should I make myself move when fear paralyses me, Andráska? I can know this, but... I just panic. Blind panic is the only word for it, I see nothing, understand nothing. It's just total and overwhelming fear. It's like being trapped by myself."

    Celeste looked to him, and yet he had no answer. He felt that fear every time he remembered Rharne, every night when he slept. He felt the beast on his chest, crushing him. He felt his teeth scrape against his skull, ready to snap close and end his life. He felt its breath and smoke filling his lungs, cradling him to his end.. And yet none of that was as terrifying as what had followed...

    “I don't know.”

    He hated to say that, to feel like he was disappointing her, “I... feel like I should know the answer, but I don't. I want to tell you to push past it, that you could overcome it with sheer will alone, but I would be lying. And... I will never lie to you.”

    Andras looked up at where he sat on the floor, his expression solemn, “I have felt alone for a long time, Celeste. And... I've grown familiar with it. I'm scared every day – no matter how I try, I lose those around me. My brother does not write or visit me, no matter how I seek his favor. He befriends Xander, and yet still dismisses me until I'm convenient, my parents see me as a favor, and the sister I loved, I also killed.” There it was again, the truth he hated to admit, “I've been disposable for a long time; trapped by myself.”

    His voice was barely a deep whisper when he stood, reaching out but stopping short, hand hovering over Celeste's arm, “It's why I value you so much. Can two broken people fix the other?” he gave a light smile that didn't quite reach his sad eyes, “Rest assured you are not alone. Not anymore. As long as I draw breath, I will raise my sword for you and fight those you cannot, until the day you can. Your Lord will do the same. We will face your fears together. You are free. You are worth fighting for.” he looked down into her eyes, not realizing how the scene must look if someone were to walk in. He wanted, needed, to give what comfort he could, “Why do you doubt your worth?”
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Consolation [Krome]

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She wanted, more than anything, to take away the pain he felt in that moment. Andraska Venora had been so kind to her already and her question did nothing except hurt them both. If she could take the words back, then she would. With a slight smile, she raised her head to look at him as he stood and she spoke in a voice barely above a whisper. ”Your brother is an idiot who doesn’t know a good thing when it’s in front of him.” Was that him or her? Well, it seemed like it was both and Celeste cursed Alistair Venora in that moment for the hurt that he had caused.

Disposable? ”Not to me. Not disposable to me.” But could two broken people fix each other? Celeste looked at him and she repeated his words to her. ”I don’t know, Andraska. But I know that when I’m with you, I feel less broken. More hopeful. That counts for a lot, doesn’t it?” His eyes were so filled with sadness, with pain and with self doubts and yet he comforted her. Celeste stood and looked up at him, her brown eyes seeking out his with an equal lack of care, or consideration, of how the pair of them must appear. ”If I am not alone, then by default neither are you.”

Why did she doubt her worth? Looking at him, Celeste sighed and then spoke. ”He held me by the throat, Andraska. Just one hand wrapping around my throat whilst the other grabbed my hair. But I couldn’t breathe.” Looking in his eyes, she wasn’t actually seeing them any more, as she told Andraska something that, thus far, she had only ever spoken of to Xander. ”Just when I thought I would die, he let my throat go and dragged me to the bath where he submerge my head again, and then again.” Returning her focus, she smiled at him, although there was nothing in that smile. No emotion, none at all. If she allowed herself to feel anything in that moment, she would burst with so much pain that she would never be the same again.

”It was the control of my breath, I knew that. But it was more than that, it was the control of me. When he was done with the water he held me and hit me. I begged him not to force himself on me. I told him it would break me.” She should have known better than that. Looking back on it, she should have known better. ”So he knocked me to the floor and did just that. I fought him, but he was too strong. He was so strong.” Celeste shook her head. ”My brother. My now dead brother, Peake. He had called me to see him to tell me he had arranged my marriage to your brother, but he was jealous. So he reminded me that I would always be his.” Those were the bruises that Andraska had seen, just about an arc before. ”Xander knows. No one else. I..” She was more ashamed than she had words for, more terrified than she could explain. ”I’m afraid, Andraska. I hate him and I love him and he’s dead. Yet he’s still controlling my life.” Shaking her head, Celeste looked at her favourite Venora. ”I’m sorry. You don’t need my burdens on top of your own right now. Does Alistair know about your sister?”
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