Faith,
I've been putting this off for far too long. I wish I could write things were going well, but they're not. What kind of a friend does that make me, that I only write to you now that everything around me is collapsing? Are we even friends anymore? I don't even know you that well, and yet I feel compelled to reach out to you. You're the only person I believe I can trust.
All the plans I made have been undone. I wish I could tell you more, but for your sake, I cannot bring myself to involve you in any of it. I've made many mistakes, Faith. While I can see now that my ambition blinded me, I do not know if my enemies will be as forgiving, and I have made many enemies. My father loves me, but does not understand me. My mother...she'd have me stay inside all day and be sheltered from the world. My siblings, I don't see them much, nor do I wish to be around them. They too do not understand what I am after, sometimes I feel as though I don't even know myself.
There are but two things that I do know. The first is that I am no longer safe as long as I stay in Rynmere, but I do not know where else to go. The second is that I regret never having been upfront with you. From the day I first saw you, I've felt compelled to seek you out. You, who are everything that I am not. I wish I had asked you to be my betrothed when I had the chance. I love you, but I wish that I didn't.
Yours,
R.
I've been putting this off for far too long. I wish I could write things were going well, but they're not. What kind of a friend does that make me, that I only write to you now that everything around me is collapsing? Are we even friends anymore? I don't even know you that well, and yet I feel compelled to reach out to you. You're the only person I believe I can trust.
All the plans I made have been undone. I wish I could tell you more, but for your sake, I cannot bring myself to involve you in any of it. I've made many mistakes, Faith. While I can see now that my ambition blinded me, I do not know if my enemies will be as forgiving, and I have made many enemies. My father loves me, but does not understand me. My mother...she'd have me stay inside all day and be sheltered from the world. My siblings, I don't see them much, nor do I wish to be around them. They too do not understand what I am after, sometimes I feel as though I don't even know myself.
There are but two things that I do know. The first is that I am no longer safe as long as I stay in Rynmere, but I do not know where else to go. The second is that I regret never having been upfront with you. From the day I first saw you, I've felt compelled to seek you out. You, who are everything that I am not. I wish I had asked you to be my betrothed when I had the chance. I love you, but I wish that I didn't.
Yours,
R.