I would mention that it's not uncommon for the holidays to trigger a sense of pressure to be jolly.
And that this can compound any existing depression by making a person somehow feel like they're "letting society down on this joyous occasion."
Well, just let me say Piss on society. You come first.
So maybe that brings just a brief hint of a smile to your face. Every little bit helps.
I don't know that I have anything more useful to offer than that; anything to indicate an ability to truly relate to how you're feeling, or why.
But maybe that isn't even necessary.
Maybe it's even more painful to have me making clumsy speculations on what would help, only to add an element of making you feel pressured to say "Gee thanks, I feel better now" when in fact I've only made it clear that I've missed completely.
Maybe just knowing that we care enough to put a response here will help more than any attempt at some specific insight.
So hey, I love it here, and I have you to thank. And I am not at all alone in this.
Rest your heart on that for as long as you need.
