She had to get a grip, she knew. Her emotions were turbulent like the oceans in a storm and waves of anger and fear and distress beat against her, but mostly she just wanted to turn around and run back to him. Run, as though she could outrun the creature within her. Yet, she knew that she could not and so her only option was to keep going. If she faltered now, if she was weak now and gave in to what she wanted, what she needed, then she might just end up hurting him. Vega couldn't, simply could not allow that to happen. Yet, all she felt was the constant itching of the thing under her skin, the as yet imagined whisperings of the voices. But no, it was time to try again, she knew it was.
So, Vega picked a spot. It was a rocky outcrop, a place with limited trees and where the snow was heavy and so any fire she created wouldn't start a blaze or any such. She sat, cross legged, on the floor after she had undone her sword belt and laid it down in front of her. Straightening her back, she closed her eyes and relaxed. Clearing her mind as much as she could, Vega took a deep inward breath and took hold of her sword.
And they fell in on her.
"Half a person"
"Not good enough, not for him..."
"Killed your mother, think you won't kill him? He's just a boy"
"Stupid girl, stupid, stupid girl, why would anyone worry?"
"Eva, don't listen to them,"
The last voice, smoother than the others was also louder and Vega spoke to it. "I need to talk. You need to be quiet. Please."
She could feel her heart beating harder, her fears building and being heard. Heard by the creature inside her, the one who spoke to her. The other voices, they were the people it had killed, she knew that. It had devoured them and now they lived in pain and screams and more than anything Vega wanted it to stop. Breathing, she had to breathe. She knew that. Breathe, Vega.
"Do you miss him? He doesn't know you've gone, he hasn't noticed. He's not home"
"Nah, it's nice for it not to be quiet. It's alright. I'm winning. Look. Look! It's going back, the glow is retreating, I'm makin' it retreat."
"Silver blood, changing eyes, half a sev'ryn Eva cries"
"You'll be with us, you're too weak, too weak. Never achieved anything alone, why start now?"
"Maybe there'll be written instructions for how to get free?"
"Listen to me. You and I will be together and I will stop them. You want me to stop them, don't you? "
She heard her voice shake as she said that, heard the desperation in her tone. She wasn't, she knew it.
"Maybe he's with someone clever, someone beautiful"
"She was the only person he's ever loved. You killed her. How can he love you?"
"Nothing, nothing of yours. When you're one of us, in here, you'll be the quiet one. The silent one. Worthless"
"It was rash, Eva. Rash and foolish and now you've hurt them all"
"Do you think he was relieved when he saw the bracelet? I bet he was.."
"Now you can't use your sword, you're nothing. Nothing. No one. "
"Easy. You're easy. Human's whore, that's what he called you."
"It isn't. It won't. You aren't strong enough, Eva. Join us. Join us and I will teach you wonders. Look."
There, on her her sword, swam words. Words which she could read
. She looked down at the words swimming there and Vega gasped. "I dunno 'ow to join you. Please. You need to go, I need you to go."
"I'm the only one, Eva. The only one who will never leave you.
Hold the sword and become one of us.
With a scream of pure frustration, Vega dropped the sword as the flames licked up her arm and she sat on the frozen ground and sobbed.